I am defeated

“To do righteousness and justice is more acceptable to the Lord than sacrifice.” (Proverbs 21:3, ESV)

I feel defeated. What do I do?

As for you, always be sober, endure suffering, do the work of an evangelist, carry out your ministry fully.”
2 Timothy 4:5

Reading in 2 Timothy this morning I noticed something. Whether the timing for us is favorable OR unfavorable we should still be proclaiming God’s message.

Even youths grow tired and weary, and young men stumble and fall; but those who hope in the LORD will renew their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not be faint.

Isaiah 40:30-31

Every one, no matter the age, goes through rough waters. We all have seasons of weariness and doubts. Yet what is important during the fight is to keep striving, even if we feel like we can’t. Even if we lose the sense of purpose. We are urged to to endure this suffering. Urge sounds pretty urgent,  persistent,  important. Doesn’t it?

He doesn’t just urge us, but solemnly urges. This is with deep sincerity. God isn’t just trying to pump you up or motivate you, but instead genuinely strengthen you and show His consistent faithfulness.

Our Father has more faith in us than we do ourselves. Proclaim the message. Keep the faith.  People will always do their way, everyone has a choice, yet, You as a child of God have a mission. You have a direct order from the Commander in Chief Jesus Christ. Carry out your ministry…fully!

Finish the race.

“From now on there is reserved for me the crown of righteousness, which the Lord, the righteous judge, will give me on that day, and not only to me but also to all who have longed for his appearing.” (2 Timothy 4:8, NRSV)

The Lord will rescue me from every evil attack and save me for his heavenly kingdom. To him be the glory forever and ever. Amen.
(2 Timothy 4:18)

Giving Seed to Sower

“He who dwells in the secret place of the Most High Shall abide under the shadow of the Almighty.” – Psalms 91:1, NKJV

I felt led to share my thoughts that I had written down from my devotional. I pray it is helpful.

We tend to get so caught up in trying to be Biblically correct, (which can be good), that we miss the ‘mark’ or ‘point’ sometimes.  Knowing all the information that we are feeding ourselves, doesn’t necessarily always give us the fulfillment we need.

God’s mystery makes us thirst for more. Which I feel He desires. He wants this relationship between us to be equally sought out and genuine. 

When we feel like we aren’t as close to Him,  we can look at all that He has created.  The miracle of life and the very intricate design of each single creation. Thinking to ourselves, were can I find God’s hand here?

“The Lord has appeared of old to me, saying:
“Yes, I have loved you with an everlasting love;
Therefore with lovingkindness I have drawn you.” – Jeremiah 31:3, NKJV


“I love you.”, He says.
He loves us.

I also think we get too caught up in what everyone else says about God or what everyone else says in general.  When we should be seeking our own individual intimate time. 

The internet can be a good resource, but it can also turn into a bad habit.  With all things,  balance is needed.
When we fill ourselves up with His Word and Presence,  effectively,  with no distractions,  we can have His truths. We can affirm for sure what He directly wants us to know.

“casting all your anxieties on him, because he cares for you.”

1 Peter 5:7, ESV

The above verse goes well with today.
He wants to hear everything little thing we have to say. Bottling it all up is no good, for either of us, (God or ourselves), and this is how we get renewed. This is where He can tell us His way versus our own.

“Search me, O God, and know my heart; Try me, and know my anxieties;”- Psalms 139:23, NKJV

Embrace God’s mystery and wonder.
It’s okay not to completely know.
“Therefore do not be anxious about tomorrow, for tomorrow will be anxious for itself. Sufficient for the day is its own trouble.” (Matthew 6:34, ESV)


“For we were never made to ponder big questions on our own. We are made to share our thoughts, our questions, our confusions, our frustrations―and ponder them with Him and allow Him to teach and father us into greater understanding.”

From rush via Gather Ministries- “Healing The Hurt”, Renew Your Mindset

Allow God to be God. Allow yourself to be still with Him.

Not just for 10 minutes either. Our relationship with Him matters. It truly does. More than we know.

Did you know that trusting in our Heavenly Father and seeking His Word is healthy not only for our spirits and minds, but for even the bones of our flesh? (see Proverbs 3:8)

Isaiah 55:10-11 shares that God means what He says. When we spend time meditating on what He is saying to us, it is important not to just filter it through and store it as information. His Words bring truth. His Words bring meaning. His Words produce life.

“As one whom his mother comforts, so I will comfort you; you shall be comforted in Jerusalem.” (Isaiah 66:13, ESV)